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| I'm sorry, everyone.; Past several days have been miserable... | |
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| blue cat | Aug 3 2006, 12:24:28 PM Post #1 |
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Hello to all. blue cat here. I'm sorry, everyone. I know some people are particularly annoyed that I still have not posted the pics of my Japan vacation yet (although, I have uploaded them all to my online photo album... it's just a matter of time now for me to post them at this forum). I know that many are still waiting for my movie review of the "Taiyou no Uta" film (and maybe even of the "Death Note" film). And I have not been doing my job for the past couple of weeks as a proud YUI-LOVER member and moderator by welcoming all the wonderful new YUI-LOVER members, translating the YUI diaries, providing news updates on everything YUI, and again, posting my vacation pics. I sincerely apologize about this. :( I don't want to give you all any excuses or anything and I'm certainly not blaming anyone, but these past several days have been a particularly miserable moment in my life. They have been very difficult for me both mentally and emotionally. It has been extremely frustrating and deeply saddening, but I know in my heart that I must keep moving on with my life. :unsure: To make a very long story a bit shorter, here it is: One of my best friends whom is married to another one of my other best friends is NOT on good terms with me anymore. BTW, even though they are married, they are still in their early 20s and not at all independent (which is a bit ridiculous). Anyways, over the past few months, I started growing very frustrated with how she was acting towards me and apparently she felt the same way too. But it pretty much ended with her thinking that I was blaming her for something I clearly did not do wrong and she threw a major temper tantrum over it. She then proceeded to remove me from online communites that we are both a part of like Xanga, MySpace, and Facebook. She even had the nerve to write a very mean entry in her Xanga blog that was subtle (but I knew she was directly referring to me) about how fake and rude I was to her, which I totally disagreed on. From all my friends that I've talked to about this situation, whom a lot of them are good friends with her too, they all believe she is way over her head about this and think she's making a very big emotional mistake. So, I'm definitely not alone in disagreeing with her here. I've done so much for her (and her husband) but have both not shown any sign of gratitude for a while now. It got to the point where I totally felt I was being used by them. After this incident with her, I tried confronting her about it and talking to her but she kept pushing me away. She really showed a side of her to me that I have never seen before. It was shocking and very painful to bear, esp. since we've been such good friends for a while now and have shared so many great experiences together. The most oddest and a bit uncomfortable part about this whole ordeal was that she's been treating me like I'm her boyfriend (when of course she shouldn't cuz she's married)!! Another friend of mine who is good friends with the both of us, tried to resolve it between us two but unfortunately she was unsuccessful (and felt very sad and lost about it). :huhuhu But, even though there is no resolution at this time, and I'm not sure if there ever will be, I will just have to live with it. I'm sure there will be a time when she will want to talk about it and I will gladly speak to her. But, witnessing the extreme measures she took in ignoring me and accusing me of completely untrue and inaccurate actions, I don't think I ever want to be friends with her again. It is a shame, especially since because of this I will also be losing my friendship with her husband (whom is also an aspiring actor and has acted in several of my films). But, losing touch with him wouldn't be the case if he wasn't always with her every second, but he unfortunately IS. And it's terrible but understandable (knowing his very passive character) that he accepts this and will choose not to continue being friends with me, just because he only listens to his wife only. He is like a leg and a foot, and she is like another leg and a foot, and they both need each other in order to walk. They're inseparable. It's true they are both married but he and I have been through so much together and now he is just easily throwing away those experiences and memories. Things will never be the same... I do know for a fact that she does not hate me, but she is definitely sick and tired of me. During this time, I have come to accept this. Although, what really sucks is that I've become really good friends with her childhood friends (who live in Japan, since BTW she was born in Tokyo and now that she is married to an American/French citizen, she has a green card). This is a problem cuz now that she won't talk to me and doesn't want to associate with me in anyway (and has proven that, by erasing every possible trace of me in the online communities we once shared, as mention above), she may tell her friends not to speak with me as well. Although, of course, that is the case, that would just prove her friends were never really friends with me to start with. :scare It is a sad, sad world we live in sometimes... It hurts, but I'll keep moving forward. It's my only option. I don't mean to come off as sounding like "Densha Otoko" as I'm telling you this to all of you, esp. since I'm not asking for advice in hooking up with a girl. It's more of talking about my broken friendship with one of my best "lady" friends. But, I decided to explain my absence here in this forum and why I've been down in the dumps as of late. A once strong bridge has now been burned down to the ground. There is a chance this bridge will rebuild itself anew, one day, but even when that time comes again, it will never be the same. That bridge would be good enough to get someone across it safely, but it will never be a sturdy and stable bridge. :huhuhu But thank God for YUI's music. Her songs have always meant a lot to me, but her songs "feel my soul", "Swing of Lie", and "Good-bye days" have never made a HUGE impact until now. "LIFE" has helped me get through so much ever since I first heard it (because of its powerful lyrics and beautiful composition), but lately, it's made a different but still strong impact on my own life. Thank you, YUI. :) And... Thanks a lot for hearing me out, everyone. I feel a lot better for just writing this out and sharing it with you all. I hope you understand. I apologize for not being a good role model lately here in the YUI-LOVER forums. I will get back onto my feet as soon as I can. I just need a bit more time to heal. |
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| AditZ | Aug 3 2006, 01:08:06 PM Post #2 |
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You don't need to worry about us blue cat. Its is us who should have do something for you in return for your hardwork and a great friendship you've given to us. I simply understand why people won't be active in an online life for some times. Its because people have their own real life to deal with. Thats why I never force anyone to take care of the forum for a whole time. And about your problem, let me show you my thought. I think that blue cat is a great person, a mature guyand a nice friend. Eventhought I never met him in the real lihfe, but I know I believe that you're no ordinary person. You're a kind guy, a hardworker, a mature and are a GREAT friend. From that point, I'm sure both of your friends are well aware of that so very much. They know you far than me. Maybe they're currently ignoring ot maybe firgeting all what they have had with you, but I'm sure that oneday they will realized what have they missed, a true friend. I'm not into advisor etc, so I can't really help, but one thing that I think I can say is: just believe in yourself and keep going forward in any hardship you've countered. I'm sure you'll get better and better because you're a GREAT guy! Ok! ;) For now, stay cool and try not to think of it too much! LIFE by YUI is a great song to share your pain with. PS: blue cat, if I know you in a real life, I'll take you out to watch some movies or hang out with my friends. |
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| homey | Aug 3 2006, 01:41:50 PM Post #3 |
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wow man that was one deep problem u got there,... whish i could help in some ways,.. atleast ill just pray w/ ur situtation and good luck to ur goals in church this sunday
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| MDV | Aug 3 2006, 02:04:53 PM Post #4 |
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wow......thats a hell of a story..........you,ve gone through a lot...... good luck on healing........ :thumbsup: |
| Fanny | Aug 3 2006, 04:19:36 PM Post #5 |
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thats right blue cat, never lose the will to keep on going on with life. proud of you for keeping your head high and never letting it down. Life's unfortunately not all plain sailing, because there's always stuff in the way. But you're strong, so you can do it. ^^ |
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| Ty_Sylicus | Aug 3 2006, 05:22:00 PM Post #6 |
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Wow. I didn't know Blue. I want to apologize for not noticing the change in your forum presence.
-_- I guess I just thought you had been very busy, b/c I know that feeling. If I were there I would surely give you a hug. :hug What you wrote is very deep, and I know it was hard to post into the forum. Yet, there is this small amount of tension that is freed from your heart upon doing so. These words brought a tear to me eyes. :( Blue, I've been in this situation before. Do you mind if I share with you a short story? A long time ago, my closest friend met a great gal. They hooked up and all was well. I would have to give them more time together thus seeing my friend less, but my best friend and I always found time for each other alone. That lastest a while but, then they got engaged one day and, it all changed. From that point it was as if she completely owned him. She suddenly didn't like me anymore, but even worse was that she didn't like her fiance hanging out with me! :o It got so bad that he wouldn't even call me anymore or answer my calls. I never got Emails or replies. I never saw him after that. :huhuhu I was miserable, and I was angry at her, him, and at myself. Knowing that my friend didn't have the best self-esteem, it was easy for me to understand how she was manipulating him. Know I didn't know what to do! I didn't want to split them apart and chance my friend hating me but, at the same time, I felt greedy and wanted my best friend back. Not only that, but I was angry at the girl for changing my friend so much. I felt that she had changed him for the worst, or that she was manipulating him. Not having anyway of reaching him, I went to a good friend we both shared and told him how I felt. Turns out, he felt the same! :toast It was a coin toss between doing nothing, or starting a war to break them apart. In the end, my friend talked to my best friend a bunch. What my friend said to me best friend made him angry- he didn't want to believe his fiance was controlling him! Now he wouldn't talk to either of us. :swt It was while later, after I had made is safely to Korea, that I got my first Email from my best friend. It was a long and dramatic apology; one that made me cry. I'm not sure what happened. Basically, his fiance had started doing some shadey stuff, and he found his eyes being "open." For the first time since he fell in love with her, he said he could see her true person and he didn't like what he saw. After a long fight, they broke up. I got this Email the next day. Since then my best friend and I haven't really been the same. It's not that we don't trust each other or love each other any less, it's just that we've both changed. He changed b/c of her, and I changed b/c of being away in the Army for so many years. Now I'm in college in Florida- still far away from him. Blue, I don't want to give you advice either. You are the only you, and you are the only one that can truely change yourself. If you want, you can detach your heart from this, or you can keep the emotion and give it time. The heart works differently for each person. Blue, I know you have a good heart. I'm sure your friends know this, so they will hopefull come to their senses eventually. It's good that you take strength in music. Music is heart and soul. It can make you brave, or it can make you cry- both are strong in their own way. Don't dwell on the heart-heavy thoughts and feelings, just let the music free you. Sorry Blue, I hope I didn't offend you. |
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| ryon | Aug 3 2006, 06:10:51 PM Post #7 |
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hey blue cat... stay cool yea? it's good that you feel better after getting all those feelings out.... i think it's quite evident from your post that you still care alot about this friendship.... and i'm sure it's the same for her... so give it time and let all those emotions and misunderstandings cool off first...anything anyone says or does now will just make things worse.... anyways...in the mean time, take care of yourself... and don't take things too hard... on the bright side... your friendship will definetely become stronger after such problems have been resolved.... hmm... YUI's music heals the broken soul huh?....lol thats great...oh and i think most of us would have watched the movie already....so it's okay if you don't post your review....lol... j/k... |
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| Reset | Aug 3 2006, 07:08:46 PM Post #8 |
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I don't have time to read the whole story now, but don't worries thing always work out. And you have us to support you :) |
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| EndtoInfinity930 | Aug 3 2006, 07:33:37 PM Post #9 |
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Gosh, why do girls always have to act like this?! (haha, I'm a girl :rolleyes: but I'm definately one of the different ones
;) ) I know what it's like to lose friends.. I know what it's like to lose friends for NO REASON. Just this summer, my BEST friend all of sudden stopped talking to me, stopped paying attention to me, and started hanging out with other people but me. And my other friends aren't paying attention to me either. It really hurt, and it still does. They don't call me up to do things and hang out. NO ONE has called me the entire summer, and school starts on the 23rd!! Although, recently, I've been able to cope with the fact that people just don't like talking to me. I don't have the slightest clue why, because I think I'm a fairly nice and interesting (maybe a little TOO interesting) person to talk to. I've been burying myself in YUI's music also. But not just listening to the songs.. I play them on my guitar and sing. "Good-bye days" and "It's happy line" in particular. I just feel so GREAT afterwards. But from every bad thing, there comes good.... and in exactly one week, there's a Japanese exchange student coming to live with me and go to school with me for one year. Her name is Rina Murakami. :) Maybe this is the friend I've been waiting for. All I can pray for is that your story has a happy ending too :hug ~YUI & HUGS!!~ (the 2 best things ^-^) |
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| viper92583 | Aug 3 2006, 10:47:43 PM Post #10 |
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sorry everyone, but I'll read the rest of the posts later...I wanted to say something about blue cat's post first. It's truly sad when something like this happens. I've been through something similar, and unfortunately, my words aren't going to mean nearly as much as those coming from other sources, were either of them to talk to you again. I can only advise you to take care of yourself and worry about us when you're back in one piece. This sort of thing hurts more than most anything else, and I have lost a very dear friend to this exact thing...In fact, I was the lone member of a list of people who were not to be invited to their wedding under any circumstances, which essentially alienated me from her, and I've never been able to truly rebuild that bridge, regardless of how many times I've tried. I'm not sure if I can say anything that would make it easier, but at this time, the only thing you can do is pick up the pieces and move on. If you can rebuild those friendships, that's great. They'll never be as strong, but perhaps they will be at least close friends that you can depend on in a crunch. If you need somebody to vent to, I'm around a fair amount...PM me for my MSN/AIM screennames if you want... Sorry I can't be of more help... PS: About the situation I described above...That is the reason I cherish Michelle Branch's music so much. I have always been able to listen to her CD's and find a new meaning I hadn't seen before, or perhaps just a new way of looking at a situation. There have been rough times, but I always had that constant, even when my friends were unavailable... YUI and BoA have recently joined that list, and to a lesser extent ELT, but I would rather not explain that...at least not right now... |
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| swtazngal | Aug 3 2006, 11:05:17 PM Post #11 |
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I agree with Aditz a LOT, I think blue cat is a great guy as well. You are a very strong person, and I wish your bridge will be healed back to a good strong bridge again.
:) I also agree with EndtoInfinity....If you really loved someone, you should allow them to see their close friends from time to time. Actually if I were to have a boyfriend I would rather have it be like that we BOTH keep in good contact with our friends so that no stupid, unreasonable crap goes on...Just because someone is with someone doesn't mean friendships change. Honestly, just 'cause you've got someone who is or you think is the one that'll be your mate for life, it doesn't mean you should just keep the world at only with just the two of you. I remember this one quote.."To you, you may seem like only one person in the world, but to another, you are the whole world"...Errr I think I said that wrong, but it was something like that. Thinking about that now, that quote is kinda BS (no offense, I used to LOVE this quote a lot and was inspired to make a fanfic on just this one quote). Friends and family you greatly care for should be a part of that world and not just one world. With the more typical girls aorund the teenage years, things end up being extremly screwed...I honestly don't want to offend anyone, but really..Things will only work out if everyone around you is happy, not just the two of you. Most girls don't get that..=.= Well at least in my school anyway...I guess I really shouldn't even be saying that if I'm only judging from my own school and a couple of people out of school. And also like some of you, LIFE has helped me greatly as well :) When I was at my breaking point and started crying while I was away, I kept singing LIFE and thinking about the meaning of the song, and..I just felt better. We all must thank YUI for her meaningful songs ^^ And again, I wish blue cat a good recovery....and hopefully none of you are offended of my cloudy philosophies |
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| viper92583 | Aug 4 2006, 12:54:46 AM Post #12 |
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well, you don't have to worry about me being offended...you're correct... my last relationship, i ended up losing a lot of my friends because my ex was extremely high maintenance (i hate saying that about people, but she demanded attention all the time). she basically expected to have to look good and have the world handed to her...in fact, when i stopped doing her homework, she sorta stopped talking to me... but in any case, that's beside the point. i have quoted "life does not leave room for regret", but it isn't entirely true. the one thing i regret is losing friends because of my last relationship. so much changed, and i really wish i had that time back so i could do it all differently. relationships should not affect friendships. if one person really loves another, and the two really trust one another, it shouldn't matter what friendships each hold, and it surely shouldn't be possible for friendships to be destroyed... blue cat, like a couple other people have said, you're strong, and this is just something that will bring out the strength in you. i do hope the friendships are able to be rebuilt, but if not, you have the strength to pick up and move on...all you have to do is take the first step (inevitably the hardest)... and to tell you the truth, "It's Happy Line" was kind of my song...the uncertainty of tomorrow, the irony of life, the great joys that such simple things can bring..."LIFE" was another one, but "It's Happy Line" was always first on the list when I was blue... that and ELT's "Ai no Kakera", which I honestly have no idea why it sticks with me... |
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| jojo | Aug 4 2006, 02:23:10 AM Post #13 |
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Oh man, I wish you a good recovery, and don't worry about posting pictures and the movie review, take your time ^^ And it's good that you're moving foward, but I hope things get better with your friends. YUI's songs helped me as well, her lyrics has a lot of meaning ^^ |
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| blue cat | Aug 4 2006, 03:47:12 AM Post #14 |
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Thank you very much, everyone for your words of honesty and grace. I really appreciate it. I was so touched by every thing you have all wrote. :huhuhu @AditZ: Naturally, I do spend a lot more time in my life (offline). But I try to invest as much time as I can in my online life, just cuz I'm online quite a bit. Plus, foruming is a great hobby of mine. I always like finding a balance. :) Thanks for your compliments about me, AditZ. I know that you too are a great person, a hardworker, and hold true to your word. If I didn't feel this way, and didn't feel confident about it, I might have never joined YUI-LOVER (or stayed in this community that long) even though I love YUI's music very much. I know that sounds harsh but I honestly wouldn't want to join an online community if I didn't like the people who had authority over it. I've trusted your judgement and beliefs ever I since I first came to know you. And I'm extremely grateful for everything that you've done for me and for everyone here. :biggrin @homey: Thank you for prayers!! And don't worry homey, just hearing me out has been enough to help me out! :toast @MDV: I will heal the best that I can. And the only way I can heal is to move forward, which I have begun to do. Thanks, MDV. And I'm sorry that I never got around to welcome you to this great YUI-LOVER forum. I will welcome you properly in your MEMBER INTRO topic thread soon, but for now, I hope you continue to having fun posting in this forum and learning more about YUI (and her fans)!!! :thumbsup: @Fanny: I will continue to keep my head up high as long as I'm granted the pleasure of living. :) LIFE definitey is hard, and it certainly sucks so much that at times I just wish it was personified into a living being so that I could punch him in the face. BUT, I would then apologize to him again and again for doing such a mean thing. Although, if LIFE was personified as a girl, that would be different. I could never hit a girl. ;) @Ty: It's alright. You didn't offend me one bit. :P I appreciate you sharing your personal story with me, and its clear that I'm not the only one who has gone through this experience. But, it is unforunate that so many of us have. You are absolutely right; I am me and I am the only one that can truly change myself. This is actually a belief I have always held by my side as well. I'm glad we are able to see eye-to-eye on this. :D @ryon: I'll stay cool, ryon. :) I definitely do still care a lot about the friendship with her but it's true that if it was never meant to be, then thats how the cookie crumbles... I'll definitely do the best to take care of myself. I think after talking about this situation with so many friends (both online and offline, you all are included!) and my family, I'm a bit exhausted and have blown enough steam. I feel a lot better now!! And, I will put up the review eventually. Sometime this summer. @Reset: It's true. Things always DO work out. But of course, it might not always be the way you want it to. But, I know it'll be for the best. I'm thankful for all your support (Reset, and everyone here). And of course, you all have my support as well. :toast @EndtoInfinity930: A lot of my guy friends often say: "Woman are ALL the same!!" And a lot of my female friends say: "Men are ALL the same!!" But, personally, I've never believed that entirely myself. I'm glad you are living proof that not all girls act like that. Even though I don't know you personally, Anna, I trust your personal beliefs about yourself. :) But, that's terrible that your friends stopped talking to you!!!! OMG... that's so messed up... :( well, I hope Murakami Rina will be that great friend you've been hoping for!! :D @viper92583: The only thing that I disagree with you with what you said is that... fortunately, your words definitely DO (and DID) mean a lot to me. :) So need to apologize, because you did good! Thanks a lot, Nick. I sincerely appreciate your help and I'm sorry that we've both had to share the same experiences... but you're right, the best way for me to do anything is to pick up the pieces and move on. I'll do that. Unfortunately for me, I've been hurt many times in my life but this was the first time it had to be with a best friend... I'll do my best. I know I'm strong but I am that way because its with help from people like you all that make me stronger. I know I've said thank you so much to everyone here so far, but honestly, and whole-heartedly, THANK YOU. :) @swtazngal: I'm not one bit offended by your "cloudy philosophies". :lol: They are honestly quite interesting. What you say is so true. If two people are very happy with one another but the people around them aren't, then where's the goodness in that? Everyone should be happy and that is when we all know that things will be just fine. I will recover, Steph. And when I do, I'll be back here in the YUI-LOVER a very happy person. B) @jojo: YUI's songs... simply amazing. When I was in late high school, early college, LINKIN PARK was the artist that helped me out so much. These days (even though I still love LP to death) it's been YUI, Mr.Children, Remioromen, and ORANGE RANGE that have helped me out emotionally in so many amazing ways. Lately, Def Tech has really given me a lot of strength too. Perhaps it's because Def Tech + Surfing + Feeling connected to Nature at the Beach + the beauties of LIFE + Moving Forward, go along together so well!! Like Peanut Butter and Jelly!! :biggrin But thanks for your support, jojo. I'll get better soon so I can provide the pics, movie reviews, and YUI translations and YUI news for you all. It's my way of saying "THANK YOU!!" to you all~!!! :thumbsup: |
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| chan-chan | Aug 4 2006, 06:59:40 AM Post #15 |
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Hi Blue cat I was kinda sad reading your post. We can feel how much you suffer from this situation which is totally normal. Ending with a good friend without good reasons is always hard to live. But don't worry soon you'll be better. Little by little, pain will be less strong. Time will do the rest. And don't worry if you're not here often. Just take time for yourself. You always do a lot for this forum (and other people do too!lol) and i wanna thank you of that and now it's our turn, YUI lovers to be there for you :) For what i could read in your various post, you seem a really great guy and a mature person. So go on living. We'll wait for you and no matter what, we're with you :hug |
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| EndtoInfinity930 | Aug 4 2006, 07:13:23 AM Post #16 |
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Oh, and blue cat, I'd like to take the time to say that.. I love how you ALWAYS reply to EVERYONE'S replies. :lol: I think it's so nifty and cool that you take the time to read through everything. :hug |
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| Reset | Aug 4 2006, 08:41:26 AM Post #17 |
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Ok, now I have read the whole story, I was has a few questions. But after I think about it abit, I not going to ask now. If you really want to know what I think is happenning you can PM me. But I think it is too late for anything, if my theory is ture. Life will go on, Perhaps this will soon turn out to be a blessing :) |
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| br4d137 | Aug 4 2006, 08:47:57 AM Post #18 |
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yes im still here.. havent gone inac yet!
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when i first read this, i didn’t want to comment... i wasn’t sure... that i should say anything without understanding the situation... but i read what u wrote a couple of times now and i think i kind of understand what is happening.. u explained the fact that she was treating you like a boyfriend... and how their relationship was not at all independent.. so im guessing ur feeling that they or she is depending or depended a lot on u. maybe she really wanted you to be the one for her... maybe she had feeling that was more then just friends... 4 u.. and maybe at a point of argument she felt that.. u didn’t have the same feelings she had for u... she snapped back to reality and realize that she is married.. and since she did feel this rejection at the vulnerable state that she was in... All feelings might have turn to embarrassment or hatred... with all the love, memories, and care... she now has to turn it all away to escape from what she believes in... maybe the way she is Xing u out of her life is that she’s trying to get u out of her mind and see that she is married and truly in love.. and that even if she is in love with you... YOU will not give in to her.. and if u do u will tear the relationship apart... SOoo therefore.. she must.. get u out of her mind... in very harsh ways... BUT u must do one thing! DONT GIVE IN! DONT LET FRIENDSHIP SLIP AWAY!!! no matter how low, immature, selfish, humiliating, degrading, hurtful the way she is treating u... if u don’t see past what’s truly there... u will let her ruin ur friendship... let her do what she is doing... do not try to force friendship or for her to understand…stay away a while and let it blow over... and it WILL blow over.. but never go as far away as a phone call.. .. its difficult to say when it will blow over... and even if it does she will probably not call u or try to talk to u ever again.. and this is probably out of embarrassment.. so ur going to have to call her.. and make the move to fix this friendship.... and even if its unfair... and it might even be uncomfortable... u need to ask urself one question... is it worth it? do u love her back enough to drop all things like pride, ego, unfairness, and guilt? and if u do say yes that it is worth it... u must become so selfless and do what needs to be done without anything in return... -- i believe that hatred and love are very closely related... with the intensity u give in love.. u also put forth in hatred... -- I hope u can work things out Mr. Blue… Just to let u know I really admire u… even though I don’t know u… ^_^ nor have I ever seen ur face… And im sure everyone feels the same way too.. the things u do and say… show ur personality… and I know u will do what u truly think is right ^_^ u will solve ur prob… ^_^ then u can get back o posting YUI stuff!! :P |
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| Riyu October3 | Aug 4 2006, 10:16:16 AM Post #19 |
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Hellow blue cat :) WOW Thats really sad :( .I wish for your recovery,u have done many good things to help YUI -lover so you diserve a break :) .If one of my ''girl'' friends did that to me i might also fell the same as you :( .Good thing YUI's music help U especially ''Life''(which is my fave YUI song) when i have problems i always listen to ''Life'', ''Simply White'' and other BeForU songs to forget the problems for a while.Just remember that all of us from YUI - lover are here for U.BTW like what EndtoInfinity930 said i also like the way you replie to everyone's opinion :) you defently hve the time to read everyone's opinion :) . |
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| AditZ | Aug 4 2006, 02:53:02 PM Post #20 |
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A new movie will be released: The Return of Blue Cat |
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| swtazngal | Aug 4 2006, 08:34:26 PM Post #21 |
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:o WHen will it be released?? |
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| Fanny | Aug 5 2006, 01:29:32 AM Post #22 |
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shhh dont tell anyone, but im the director! XD and aditz is my producer. |
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| konoha_peace | Aug 5 2006, 01:34:54 AM Post #23 |
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We know you can do it, Blue cat because cat has 9 life !! Sorry, just joking but since you have us here there's no use to get upset, just shout to release from any problem but surely we can't hear it |
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| Ty_Sylicus | Aug 5 2006, 04:50:27 AM Post #24 |
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LIFE definitey is hard, and it certainly sucks so much that at times I just wish it was personified into a living being so that I could punch him in the face. BUT, I would then apologize to him again and again for doing such a mean thing. Although, if LIFE was personified as a girl, that would be different. I could never hit a girl. -Blue Even as comical as that is, it's also very deep Blue. I'm going to save that quote to my pc ok? ^_^ I've definitely felt this way before! (Just didn't have the words!)
I'm glad Blue. I can be unknowingly rude at times. :swt I was surprised that so many of our Y<3r friends have went through this. Before reading this thread, I didn't think it was so common. You're right Blue, it's truely sad. I'm honored Blue. To be completely understood is an honor. After being through what I've been through in my life- all the weird situations and all- it would be naive to NOT believe this way. I felt more grown-up when I had this realization. It was so life-changing.
Now this is what I was talking about Blue! :thumbsup: I'm sure we could spend hours talking about how we have assimilated so many great artists. If you find the time, I would enjoy to chat with you about music and life, among other things. :) Linkin Park helped me a LOT too. The song "Somewhere I Belong" is still on my list of "LIFE mottos," along with: LIFE, Tomorrow's way, Hero (by Enrique In.), and a few others which I can't recall right now. (Yuna what, I really should MAKE a word doc list... XD) Pure truth Blue, I appreciate your friendship on a high level; even if we are just forum buddies. People like us, I like to believe, have potential to be great friends in life. This is one of the reasons why I opened the special Staff thread. ^_^ My info's in my profile if you ever need to reach me. ------
Anna, I think you're a sweet girl, and it's beyond me how your friends would be so inconsiderate to you. :bash It's a beautiful thing that you have a lot of confidence and faith in YOURSELF. This may sound pessimistic but, in the end, you can only truely place 100% of your trust and reliance upon yourself. Other's will never be you- they will never understand you as much as yourself does. Anna, I wish you the best of luck with befriending Rina. You're SOOO lucky! My school didn't have exchange students, though we did have a girl from Central America who was bi-lingual with English and Spanish. She was a really cool gal! B) Make sure you take pics and share them with us! :wink ------
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| chronopaladin91 | Aug 6 2006, 02:39:44 AM Post #25 |
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Ah that must really hurt Bluecat! I'm so sorry such a thing happened to you, while you did nothing wrong! This isn't even right, such a bad thing shouldn't happen to such a good and nice person! Honestly this really irritates me a lot when something like this devastates a persons life! :huhuhu You're right life does really suck at times and makes you want to kill someone. :damnpc :bash :punch But hey thats what life is about, many obstacles to overcome and don't let anything stop your will to move on. And if you think something is wrong in your life then it's up to you to change your fate and desinty the way you want it to be. Although it's still great to hear that you're still hanging in there listening to YUI's music. That trick does work though because YUI's music has inspired me so much to move on forward and not to give up in life. The song LIFE did the trick! Oh yeah and also Utada Hikaru's - Keep Tryin' PV will also really cheer you up big time. :lol: :lovepc Also!!! Never forget this! *SPOILER in Taiyou no Uta (although I know you watched it already, but I'm warning others)* Remember the quote that YUI said in Taiyou no Uta, "I've decided to live on till I die because I'm going to live on with all my might!" That should help too. Also don't ever feel down Bluecat, even if you are having trouble with your friends you will still have us as friends supporting each other! So your true friends will always be in your heart and memories guiding you whereever you go! By this we will all finish the war of problems together on the battlefield of life! :damnpc :punch :bash Anyways YUI, every person on this forum, you, and I would like to wish you a safe recovery and hope you can join us back on this forum! When you return safely back we will celebrate for your return with: The Return of Blue Cat movie, YUI's music, and YUI's cake! :lol: :D :toast :thumbsup: XD :guitar |
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| blue cat | Aug 6 2006, 10:55:40 PM Post #26 |
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I must say, I'm feeling a lot better lately! I honestly feel that I've put a lot of "this" behind me and I've been moving on. It's definitely been hard but at least I know that I'm moving forward to better things.
:) @chan-chan: Thanks for understanding, chan-chan. I've always felt that if I'm there for other YUI-LOVER members, then they will do the same for me. But, when another YUI-LOVER member openly acknowledges and makes it known that they WILL do just that, it's a great feeling. Just as you've done and stated in your message. I'll definitely go on living, and I'll keep moving on, but I definitely won't leave you all behind. :) @EndtoInfinity930: No problem. It's my pleasure. Others read my insanely long (but of course, well thought-out) posts, so I find it only right and out of respect to read everyone else's posts. :) But in this situation, it was a great feeling to read all your thoughts; it's really helped me a lot emotionally!! :huhuhu :wink Reset: Its true that life will go on, and maybe this will turn out to be a blessing but somehow I feel it won't. BUT, I'm certain that this was meant to happen and as hard as it is, I have a feeling that things will eventually fall into place. ;) br4d137: Very interesting. I never saw this whole situation under the way in which you stated. Maybe she did have feelings for me in that sense... she did admit at one point that she forgets she's even married... I think that says a lot. But about the friendship between us, its already over. And, I've accepted that ended. As you said, and I agree, that things WILL eventually blow over, but when that time does come, I'll have already moved onto other things. I hope she has too. Things were obviously not meant to be, and things in life don't always work out (even if you want them to). I understand this now. As for the question you asked: "Is it worth it?" My answer I would have stated a few days ago, would have been "maybe". But during this recovery and time of recollection, my answer now is "No". It's not worth it. I don't say that with disdain nor regret, but I state that answer in the best interest for both parties: myself and her. That's just the way things are, and I have come to terms with that. I'm truly honored that you admire me, Brad. As a moderator, a senior member, and probably one of the few older people in this forum, I feel good that I'm doing my job. To help you all out in any and every way that I can. Thanks a lot for helping me out now in times when I most need it. I appreciate it very much. :) Riyu October3: Thanks a lot!! I have recovered quite a bit since, and I will continue to recover to the max! Personally, MUSIC has always been one of the greatest medicines I've relied on for healing and mental improvement; YUI is just one of the artists in the power of music that's helped me in so many ways. It's great to see that she has done the same for you all!! :biggrin AditZ: Ah yes, the movie. You will be the first to see it!!! swtazngal: The movie will be released when I deem it ready. :D Fanny: And I'm the CEO exec in charge of production and distribution rights to the film, which is why I have control over the release date of the film and who has the right to see it first. :lol: :P konoha peace: Don't worry, I'm not upset about it. Its a great joke actually and I never really thought about that. It's true, I DO have NINE LIVES!!! SWEET!!! :biggrin :thumbsup: Ty: You're more than welcome to use that quote whenever you want, Ty. :) And I feel the exact same way too. Even though we are just forum friends, and even though friendship in the online world is a bit different from the kind in the offline world, I still greatly appreciate and honor the friendship we have! Thanks for always wanting to help out!! :hug chronopaladin91: "I've decided to live on till I die because I'm going to live on with all my might!" Indeed, a great quote. One that I will not forget. And another reason I absoultely love that film, cuz its really about moving forward (despite how tragic some things in life are). Thank you for your kindness, chrono. Solving problems and working them out together is always better than doing it by yourself!! You are absolutely correct about that. :) I will definitely join everyone again soon (in this forum) and be much stronger than before. I look forward to "The Return of Blue Cat" movie, YUI's music, YUI's Cake, and of course, the accompaniment and great friendships of everyone in this wonderful YUI-LOVER community!!! :huhuhu :) :thumbsup: :toast |
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| swtazngal | Aug 7 2006, 12:05:10 AM Post #27 |
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....Okay now how 'bout givin' us a date ya? XD Lol but seriously, it's great to know you're getting better ^^ |
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| Ty_Sylicus | Aug 9 2006, 05:41:17 AM Post #28 |
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*blush* Ah thanks Blue. Think nothing of it? I know you do the same for me. ^_^ |
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| blue cat | Aug 9 2006, 11:15:50 PM Post #29 |
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@Steph: Not only am I getting better, I actually feel really good now.
:) In a way I feel improved. Almost feels like a new start.
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| Deleted User | Aug 11 2006, 07:04:05 PM Post #30 |
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Even though you seem to be in a rough spot right not I'm glad you've been able to find hope in music. If there's any advice I can give you is to hold on to the things that give you hope right now. You seem like a really great guy and completely undeserving of this situation. You're very strong and I appreciate that you made this thread. It's good to know what a fellow yui-lover is going through :) Everything has a reason. Maybe this happened to show you that these people weren't right for you. In any case...things can only get better. Woohoo for new starts! :) I'm so happy you're feeling better :hug: Even though I don't know you :P |
| blue cat | Aug 17 2006, 04:58:37 AM Post #31 |
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Thanks for the advice, Lacus!! I will definitely continue to hold onto the things that I have hope for right now. I agree with you too. I don't think these "friends" were right for me. Other friends of mine saw that, but I wasn't able to (until the "incident" happened). And even though I don't know you personally either, thanks a lot for your concern. I really appreciate it. :) |
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